The realese of Final Fantasy Dissedia is sooner than your next Banana split!
Date: December 28 of 2008.
well thats all I can say for today!

 should I quit trying to dig out information from Testuya Nomura? I got a memo last week for hacking his pc and seeing confidebtial info I dun wanna lose my job even if I'm just an assistant of sum imporatnt person, all I do is take that to this office and this thing to the other and serve tea!!!

okay so I began writting a novel and I want to now everyones opinion:

When the Cherry Blossoms Cry:
Chapter one:

                   Spring ハル

 

 

            There was a beautiful garden, with beautiful flowers. A boy and a girl played there all the time. You could hear their laughter, their running and their voices. Spring had finally come, but the boy left once spring ended and the girl was left alone... once again. Her name is Hikari; she is the daughter of General Otoga and Lady Shizuka. Her mother died when she was four and her father raised her after that. He cared for nothing but her well being and so he protected her from everything... even the world beyond the window. Locked her away he did, away from the world that had caused him pain, where there was war, hatred and tragedy. However Hikari saw more than that, she saw the beauty that no one saw, but was it because she was locked on her palace? She desired to leave that dreadful place and see the world that to her eyes was a beautiful paradise.

 

-May I?-woman

-Mii, you are early today. Of course, Mii you do not need to ask. You are like a mother to me-Hikari replied looking at the maiden with gentle looking eyes

 

Hikari had long black hair and her eyes where yellow mixed with green, just like her mothers. Her skin was soft white and her lips as pink as the cherry blossoms, her hands small and they seemed so fragile. Her mother was a Geisha but when she met General Otoga she fell in love and became his woman. She left behind her life in Osaka and began living in Kyoto with the man she loved. Months later she learned that she was to be a mother and eventually gave birth to a beautiful baby girl and she named her Hikari. Hikari means Ray of Light and to Shizuka Hikari was the light that shined her life until the very end. After Shizuka passed away Hikari grew lonely, being only child was tough for her but she could recall playing with a boy when she was little. She couldn’t remember his face or his name and so she asked

 

-Mii, do you remember the spring mother died?-Hikari asked lowly

-How could I forget?-Mii replied

-do you remember the boy that I played with by then? I almost had completely forgotten about it but this spring flowers are just like that time flowers... pale and I remembered about him but... I cannot recall his face or his name... I feel terrible-Hikari lowered her face

- My child, I do not recall any of that. Are you sure it was not a dream? - Mii asked worried

- If it was I dream... I would have slept for eternity... just for not being alone... I would do anything-Hikari stood up and went to the garden where she used to play, where the memory of her childhood remain.

 

She kept in silence; thinking of that boy that she once dared to called a friend and disappeared without a trace. She walked on the garden and stopped in front of the cherry blossom tree. The petals of its flowers felled on her kimono and adorn her beautifully. She closed her eyes for a while and recalled tripping on the tree and hurting her kneed and the boy helping her stand up and taking her inside the palace.

 

-what was your name? Where did you go?-Hikari though

-here all alone my child?-General Otoga surprised her in the garden

-father you startled me, are you going somewhere?-Hikari asked while seeing him in his uniform

-I am afraid so, the shogun has summoned me. I believe I shall be back within a month-He replied to her

-Can I go with you?-Hikari asked

-absolutely not! You are to stay here-he replied angry and left.

 

Hikari began crying... how she longed for freedom. Her father left without saying good bye during midday. Hikari felt rage, she wanted to leave that prison she called home and so she decided to visit the town. It wasn’t easy, she thought, there were security guards making sure she didn’t leave the palace. Suddenly she remembered a wall being broken behind many bushes and so she rushed there and left. She went to town and saw how the people gathered, as they celebrated the spring return. She stopped near a riverside and gazed the sun setting. She felt happy and yet so lonely. If only she had someone to chare that moment with.

 

-Beautiful is it not- a young man said to her sitting down to see the sun set

-y-yes it truly is- Hikari looked at him shyly and he looked back at her

 

She felt chills, for some strange reason she felt that she knew him from long ago but he was a complete stranger, how could she possibly now him. She looked away. The young man had black hair and blue eyes. Hikari was surprised, she never saw anyone with such eyes other than her or her mother. He never stopped looking at her and asked:

 

-are you new in town?

-um... No, it’s just I do not get out much... t-that is all- Hikari replied lowly

-I see...- he replied

-Hikari! There you are!!-Mii screamed at her from the bridge

-oh no... So much for freedom-Hikari said to herself

-Hikari? Hikari Otoga?-the young man asked her

-Do you know me?-Hikari asked surprised

-you do not remember me? How can you forgot me?-he asked

-Forget?-Hikari asked confuse

-you get here young lady! Wait until your father knows what you have done!-Mii took Hikari away and she stared at the young man one last time. Then she said

-of course not... Haru- Hikari then remembered that he was the boy she played with and smiled

-I never forgot you either...- Haru smiled back

 

Perhaps it was fate for them to meet again, for this is only the beginning. Hikari went back home and spoke with Mii’s daughter who was about her age. Her name was Hitomi. Hitomi and Hikari were good friends and Hikari told her everything about her first day out in town.

 

-it was like nothing I had ever seen! Such beauty and its people where so gentle and kind. I do not see why my father would kept me apart from such lovely place-Hikari said

-it is nice out in town, tonight there’s a carnival, I’ll be going there. There will be fireworks, dancers; I really would love you to go wit me-Hitomi replied

-but I will go, my father isn’t here-Hikari told Hitomi

-You’ll get in trouble if you do-Hitomi told her worried

-Oh come on, after discovering the world beyond these walls, you think I rather stay here and miss all the fun?-Hikari said to Hitomi

-then how will you get pass the guards?-Hitomi asked

-well that is easy, same as I did this morning-Hikari replied

 

Hikari changed right away using a kimono Hitomi leaned her and they both left at night fall. The town was fuller than ever, people where celebrating the beginning of a new spring. Hikari was there to celebrate not only spring but also she hoped to meet anew with Haru. She looked everywhere for him but she did not see him. Hitomi went to eat ramen with Hikari, it was the first time Hikari ever heard of such a food and as soon as she tasted it she loved it. “This is better that any food I have ever eaten” she told Hitomi. After they finished eating they went around the town. Hikari saw the riverside where she saw Haru but he was not there. Hikari asked Hitomi to what just one moment and she left there, to the river side. She saw the moon reflected in the water, and looked t the sky. She sat down remembering the spring she first saw Haru. And then...

 

-alone again Hikari? - Yes Haru appeared right there. Hikari smiled at him

-Haru! It is so ever good to see you again... how have you been all this time?-Hikari asked

-Well... helping my father as always, my older brother got married and left. Father has only me and he is a bit old. But never mind that, look at you. You have grown to be a beautiful maiden. When we where little I do not recall you being so beautiful-Haru told Hikari smiling at her

-Oh... please- Hikari blushed

-Hikari... who is he?-Hitomi asked confused

-Hitomi, this is Haru, we met long ago and we recently found each other again. He is the first friend I ever made-Hikari told Hitomi

-it is an honor-Hitomi said to Haru

-oh no the honor is mine-Haru replied

-well I’ll leave you both alone; you probably have a lot to talk about. Excuse me-Hitomi left them

-I remember playing with you the knight and the princess under the cherry blossom tree-Hikari told Haru

-Yes, I was the knight and you were my princess... but I wonder... are you still my princess?-Haru asked

-Are you still my knight?-Hikari asked him and laugh- good times...

-Hikari... I missed you. You were, after all the first friend I ever made-Haru told Hikari and held her gentle hand

-I missed you too... now that we have found each other anew we’ll be able to see each other everyday, like before-Hikari replied to Haru holding back his hand

-excuse me... we must go Hikari-Hitomi said worried

-Can I see you again?-Haru asked

-Yes, wait for me everyday under that cherry blossom tree- Hikari said while pointing a cherry blossom tree by the river side. Seconds after the fireworks light up the sky. The both saw the beauty in the sky

-I shall wait for you then, princess- Haru said to her and looked at her at the eyes firmly- your eyes, the blaze in them is so soft, so warm ...so pure.

-your eyes remind me of the water, so strong and yet so gentle... farewell my knight...-Hikari replied and let go of his hand

-no... Not farewell, see you tomorrow...-said Haru while Hitomi took Hikari away

 

They both headed back then to Hikari’s home. After a while Haru went back to his house. Haru was the son of another Geisha who was a really dear friend to Shizuka, Hikari’s mother. Her name was Yuki. Yuki, like Haru had blue eyes. She met Shizuka in Osaka, Yuki was merely a Maiko and Shizuka had just become a Geisha that day. After that, Yuki fell in love of a man named Takeshi Sakamoto. They both got married and like Shizuka they went to live in Kyoto. Months later she gave birth to Haku and Haru. It was the night before spring began and the dawn of spring’s beginning that she gave birth to twins, Haku was born at the evening, before spring started, and Haru was born at the dawn of springs break. Yuki raised them both with never ending love and taught them so many things that most of the children in town might never learned. Then, came the word of Shizuka’s death. Yuki went everyday to the shrine were her name was placed and prayed for her. Haru always went with her. Then he met for the first time little Hikari. One morning the came, little Hikari was crying on her mothers grave and Yuki’s heart went to pieces, it was as if she saw Shizuka being a child for Hikari looked just like her mother. Haru tried to cheer that poor little girl that cried with all the sorrows of the world. And they became friend but at springs end Yuki became very ill too. One morning that Haru went to see how his mother was doing he saw his father in tears and by his side the cold body of his mother. Yuki was no longer among them... then Haru remember Hikari crying and told himself “ this must be the way she feels..” and he began to cry as well. They both grew up and eventually forgot about each other, but the beginning of this spring awoke the sleeping memory that lay within them.

 

The next morning Hikari woke up very happy. Mii showed up and brought her breakfast

 

-You are happy this morning; this isn’t like yourself my child...-Mii said to Hikari

-that man I talked to yesterday was the boy I told you about, he was the only one that made me smile after my mothers death. Mii I found my friend again... please tell me you will let me see him again. There is so much I want to tell him so many things... please Mii let me be happy even for a while-Hikari begged Mii with tears

-Alright my child... but you will be back here by nightfall-Mii said to Hikari

-Thank you- Hikari smiled and hugged Mii she eat breakfast and left with no hesitation

 

She ran to the cherry blossom by the river side where Haru awaited for her. When she got there Haru wasn’t there... she felt sad... maybe something happened, she told herself. Suddenly a man covering his face with flowers showed up. It was Haru.

 

-forgive me for being late I had to buy you a gift- said Haru while giving her the flowers

-they’re beautiful... Haru I never thank you back then for making me happy-Hikari said to him

-Shhh... You have nothing to thank me; I still have another surprise for you-Haru said to her while smiling

-still more? Haru you should not waste money on me-Hikari said to him

-but I do, you are my friend and I want to make you feel happy and special and... Please do come with me-Haru said and held her hands

-alright but I owe you-Hikari said

 

They both walked around the town all morning. Haru showed her everything about the town. They both laugh and had so much fun and eventually stopped in the same place the first saw each other and Haru said to her:

 

-I could not stop thinking about you last night, for some reason you have become my every thought-Haru said to her. The petals of the cherry blossom fell on them as the wind blew and Hikari replied

-me too, Haru I enjoy your company, it truly does make me feel special... even if we found each other yesterday I feel I know you from long ago.

-yes I feel that same way-Haru stood still and saw the petals fall all over Hikari- the flowers adorn you with more beauty that the one you already have... come with me there still is much more to see.

-I will follow you to the ends of the world if I must-Hikari replied and took his hand they both walk while holding each others hand and they eventually stooped on a school.

-this is my home, it may not be a palace but it is all me and my father have-Haru said

-it’s so nice here... this is better than any palace-Hikari told him

-it used to be a school for Geishas, my mother found it but after she became very ill we closed it until she felt better... she passed away during summer.-Haru told Hikari

-I am so sorry...-Hikari said

-it is alright... come I want you to meet my father-Haru took her inside the school and there was a man making a wooden table- father, this is Hikari.

-oh Haru, she is even more beautiful in person, it ever son nice to meet you my child-Said Takeshi

-the pleasure is all mine.-Hikari replied

-come there is one last thing I want to show you-Haru took Hikari farther in the school and they went to a garden where there was a house and they both went inside. They went to Yuki’s room and there was a box there

-What is this?-Hikari asked

- It’s a kimono. I want you to have it. It belong to my mother and I remember that the day before she died she asked me to give the kimono to Shizuka’s daughter.-Haru said

-I am grateful-said Hikari

-would you wear it? I mean.... never mind-said Haru embarrassed

-Where can I change?-asked Hikari while taking out the kimono

-Well you can change here; I’ll be outside in case you need anything-Haru left

 

Hikari changed into the kimono Haru gave her. This Kimono was red and had a big butterfly and flowers of different kind inside squared boxes. The obi was pitch black and red. After she finished she went outside where Haru was waiting. Haru gazed at her and his heart began beating fast

 

-you look ... truly beautiful...-he said his hands were shaking and sweating

-Thank you...your words are kind-she said

-Now I want to take you somewhere else...-he said

-take me then...-Hikari told him

 

He took her to a restaurant. Everyone saw her walk in by Haru’s side, “what a beautiful woman” some said, others though “she must be a geisha” and they both began to eat and talk. They had a great time. Haru prepared that day for her because she must have felt very lonely in her palace, he wanted to make her forget that.

 

-Can I ask you something? - Hikari asked

-Of course- he replied

-why are you doing this?

-... I want you to forget the meaning of loneliness... I want to erase that lonely look in your eyes- he said very soft

-Haru...

-that’s why... I want to see you smile with your heart not with your face...

-I... its getting dark I must go. Thank you

-Wait Hikari can I see you again? - He asked while standing up

-we shall meet every day under the cherry blossom-Hikari said to him

-I promise I’ll be there every day- he holds her hands

-I must go.... good bye...-and Hikari left

-why? Why does that word hurts my heart? Could it be...? Can it be that I am falling in love? No that’s impossible she’s dear to me but... not like that... or is she... Hikari- Haru left too.

 

Haru headed to his house and saw Hikari’s Kimono. He thought about her face, “how beautiful she looked today” he told himself “wait... is this right I mean we just recently found each other... but the chemistry between us is just so wonderful, and besides no one has ever treated me the way that no one else have... I can’t get her out of my mind... why? Why?” Hikari went to her room and placed the flowers in water and started thinking in Haru too. “Oh Haru, you haven’t changed, you are so kind and gentle... it hurts to say good bye...” then Hitomi entered the room.

 

-what a beautiful kimono! Did that man gave it to you?-Hitomi asked surprised

-yes, he did... Haru, he is such a wonderful person-Hikari said to her

-Do you like him?-Hitomi asked and sat down with her

-I cannot deny that he is attractive, handsome and gentle... kind, sweet...

-you are falling in love!! There is no doubt about it-Hitomi told Hikari

-love...Haru? That’s impossible, we just found each other the other day, I can not have fallen in love that fast-Hikari said

-Your father fell in love of your mother the moment he laid eyes on her-Mii suddenly said entering the room

-but... he’s my friend...

-He brought you flowers- Hitomi pointed the flowers

-he wanted to make me feel special and happy-Hikari said

-then he too has fallen in love-Mii said

-that is impossible, we are just friends... this subject is to bold-Hikari said

-my apologies-Mii said and left

-Will you see him tomorrow?-Hitomi asked

-of course I will! I’ll see him everyday and who knows maybe he can earn my fathers trust and I can finally leave this place-Hikari said

-before being my boss you are my friend... do tell me what you feel when you see him-Hitomi asked

-I cannot find words to describe, all I can really say is that he makes me very happy and with him I forget all the suffering and loneliness I went through-Hikari told Hitomi

-I see... you really have fallen in love-Hitomi told her

-... perhaps you are right... he has become my every though, when I wake up I think of him and if I close my eyes I can see his face smiling at me... my friend I have fallen in love... and in so little time. How could this happened?-Hikari said scared

-I am not an expert but love always shows up when you need it the most that is what my mother told me-Hitomi told Hikari

- I wish mother were here to tell me and help me-Hikari said and left to the garden.

 

As she was in the garden she couldn’t help to keep think ing in Haru, she did fall in love; she fell in love of her first friend in am small among of time. Perhaps Mii wasn’t so wrong after all; maybe love comes when you need it the most. As she walks thinking in Haru she stopped at her mother’s shrine and saw her paint. “Mother... I wish you were here with me... I need you... I am merely eighteen years old and I have fallen in love with Haru.... I... I don’t know what I should do...” she began crying bitter tears “oh Haru” she said.

 

On the other hand Haru went to see his brother Haku and his wife. To his surprise Haku was going to become a father. Haku was always serious, he could be a bit cold and mean but in the mean time very sweet, his wife, Mariko, saw that in him. Haku was surprised to see Haru at his house. Even though they were brothers they did not get along very well, Haku always said that his mother loved Haru more than him.

 

-Haru, what a surprise!-Haku said- what brings you here?

-Haku my brother, can someone fall in love in a day or two?-Haru asked confuse

-huh? What are you saying? Wait... you think you’re in love-Haku asked even more confuse

-that, I think I am. Haku... I need your help, I can’t stop thinking about her, she’s become my every thought, tell me... did I fell in love of her?-Haru asked

-Well if I may -said Mariko- who is this girl you talk about?

-Her name is Hikari Otoga, daughter of general Otoga and or mother’s friend, Lady Shizuka-said Haru

-Hikari?! But how did you meet her? Her father always keeps her lock in that palace-declared Haku

-I met her before mother passed away, later, many years later, passed and I eventually had forgotten those childhood memories but then, the day of my birth day I saw this young lady alone and I began talking to her. To my surprise it was her. And after that we met again today and now we promised to see each other every day and I can’t get her out of my head-said Haru

-sound to me like you have fallen in love... in a small matter of time-Haku said

-well I fell in love of Haku in one week, he went home to make a door and we met there we kept talking and talking and when I least expect it I had fallen in love of Haku!-said Mariko with excitement

 

In love... they both had fallen in love of each other but they couldn’t help wonder “will this affect my bond with my friend? Should I tell my friend the way I feel?”

 

 

Two weeks went by as their feeling had grown even stronger to each other. It was mid day and they were both at the river side where they met. And Haru began to say to Hikari:

-I made a little something for you

-Oh really?

-Well it isn’t much but it goes something like this...-said Haru while taking a piece of paper out-

Dance for me beautiful flower,

Adorn me beautiful maiden,

I shall look at you gracefully.

Sing for you I shall my beautiful goddess,

And allow me to gaze upon your golden eyes

For they are the only light in my life

That can lead me through out this life...

My heart speaks as I see you

For your beauty has left me speech less.

 

-Haru that was beautiful...- said Hikari

-that was only the beginning... Hikari there is much more than just this poem I wrote while thinking in you... when I first met you we both were mere children, but now that I am a man and that you are a woman... I ... have fallen deeply in love with you

- Haru I...

-I know that I may be nothing, nut I promise that I will work hard for both of us... and if I have offended you please forgive me... its just ... I had to tell you the way I feel... I could not bear it any longer....

-Haru... I... I love you too.

 

And with no hesitation the kissed under the cherry blossom. The petals where falling down slowly adorning the scene with magic and beauty, it was as if the tree was weeping on them with happiness. But the question is how long this happiness will last.

I wish everyone I know and don't kow a wonderful x-mas along with the ones you alll hold dear within your hearts! and I hope you all got what you wanted for x-mas cuz I didn't DX! Santa we need to talk
NOW!!!!!!!!!! 

 well, all I want is Hiroto on a big box, with his guitar and singing to me!!!! a love dove song!!!! or a playstation tree!!! I will kill santa if he doesn't brings me what I want!!!

 well I was seven, and I wanted to place the tree star on the xmas tree and when my dad when to the bathroom I grabbed the tree star and staretd climbing the tree. When I got to the top the tree fell down with me and I broke all of the decorations, I ran to my room and my folks never new it was me who did it.lol! I will never tell them!!!! mua ha ha ha!!!!!!

He is just so adorable!!!!!!!! even if he dyes his hair blonde or red!!! he will always be KAWAIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I was a little girl back then... It was horrible when I found out.... I was only six back then.... XD

Day by day, my love for you grows stronger and
I need to be with you, my love, everyday of my life;
please don't leave me here, all alone in the dark.
I need you becuse I love you...
My Dearly Beloved

~Close your eyes and I'll close mines,
Remember me and I'll remember you,
open your heart and I'll open mine,
love me for I truelu love you.

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